When time is not at your side…

Sometimes you wish that time could go faster than its usual speed. But sometimes you just want to buy time and enjoy your life slowly by the minute. At this moment, I am counting the days when my last paper on the 18th November will be over. The four years of law school taught me a lot. These past years have been the best time of my life and I can never compensate it with anything else. Those times are priceless.

I remember the first time I lay my feet on the IIU’s green holy ground. I still can recall moments of taaruf week perfectly as if it was just yesterday…

There were times that I just feel like working and not studying. Things like ‘I want to spend my own money. I want more freedom. I don’t want to do any more assignments. I don’t think I can memorize this crap any longer’ made me think twice about school.

But then, those are the things that kept me going and those are the things that I will miss the most.

I will miss waking up in the morning to go to classes, meeting up with the deadlines, have lunches with friends, skipping classes and… (the list goes on).

What I want to say is, what kept me going and will keep me going is my FRIENDS. The 'list' wouldnt be complete without my friends . Each and every one of you will always have a place in my heart. You helped me when I was at my lowest low and laughed with me when I was at my highest high. You are my everything and I thank you.

and hopefully I will always have a place in your heart too… From the bottom of my heart, I love you to bits.

I wish you all the best and good luck*

If only time is at our side and if only I could buy more time. If only.

...

I thought things would be different if I texted certain words to you.
But its not making things right.

I know I dissapoint you, but the thing is, U dissapoint me too.
And if only people could be more forgiving rather than to be judgmental most of the time...

But its okay, maybe I should take this as a sign or a 'hikmah' from Him.
There are always reasons for everything.
And He knows it all.

But, I want to say this:

I'm sorry if I ever hurt you in any way. It wasnt intentional. What I did was wrong. And this is an unconditional apology. But I have my pride. When I apologized to you the other day, I meant it from the bottom of my heart. But Im not the type of person who waits. I dont. And if you cant accept my apology, then I'll go knowing that I did my part. And I dont know whether I should do more because, I dont know whether more would suffice in this situation. So. Its your call. And as always, I love u. n i miss u too.

Paparazzi!

I'm your biggest fan

I'll follow you until you love me

Papa-Paparazzi

Baby there's no other superstar

You know that I'll be your-

Papa-Paparazzi

Eternal Flame

I wish for eternity. But eternity seems to be impossible right now,

and i can no longer hold this feeling.,
and as much as i dont want it to fade,
sooner or later, this feeling will come to an end.

Not entirely, but slowly.
Perhaps if you could just give me a sign or a hint,
then maybe, just maybe,
I could stay. and keep on trying.

If

when things dont go according to plan,

you do things spontaneously...

Coincidence?

500 days of summer memang terbaik!
its not just an ordinary romantic comedy film.
Its something more. Borgy n I went to pyramid to get the tix and we both know that Ajins gonna watch it too with his cousin.

We later meet up and found out that by coincidence we get to sit at the same row next to each other. haha. Funny kan?

But whatever it is, thumbs up to 500 days of summer. Seriously. U guys should go n watch it.
The ending is not a fairy tale, but its real. ;D

and I learnd that eventhough i do want a guy with money, decent looking bloke with a career from a good family, it all boils down to whether he is real or not?? And yes I want a real man. Not just some guy you see on the street with a nice car or a nice suit. I need someone REAL.

Find me one, please??

dearest

Dearest You,

I am still waiting for you.
I'm not tired, but i'm just exhausted.

Wherever you are,
I'm here and will always be.

Patience is all I need.
and Love does not come easy...