weight issues

Everyone, okay not everyone, but lots of people have been highlighting me about my weight. If its about me losing more weight i dont think it would be a problem, but this is gaining more of it.

The thing is, its not something that i can control, as BS as it sounds, its true. I can no longer control the cravings i have, the food im eating. I used to be good at it. but i dont know.

People just dont understand. and a friend of mine called me a makcik just because i gained a few kgs and was wearing t-shirt and at that point in time was walking too, like a makcik - at least thats what he said.

And, I am now trying to avoid at all cost bumping or hanging out with him because I dont want any form of toxicity (is there such word?) in my life. I can be really affected about people commenting on my weight. Yeah, so what if i gained a few kgs. Can always lose it back but if i dont so leave it be. Its my fat u ***k face, didnt ask you to go comment on it. But hey its a free world aint it, people can always say what they want to say.

Please, what have u achieved so far? EXACTLY.

Point made, hey ho, lets go.

again

okay, i think i want to start and write again. i think. not that i'm a consistent blogger previously, but its worth a try.

...

see. i dont even know what to write. currently, as of now, im hating my job. i dont know why. but maybe i just dont feel remunerated or valued. thats normal, aint it?

oh and my e-day is coming up!

25.02.2012

:) can't wait.

I love you

Adlan Hadi,

from the bottom of my heart I love you. 

;)

Memor-ies

I havent posted anything in a while.

But i found out something. few weeks back.

I want to try and make efforts, but i dont know how to. Bcoz i know you could be the one for me. Or maybe i think you could be the one for me.

How I wish things were easier back then. and i dont have that much pride in me.

I shouldve let my guard down few years back.

oh well. somehow, things happend for a reason. right thing will fall in its place, one day.

an attempt

i tried changing my blog layout but instead i lost my header pic in the process.

oh well. whatever.

anyways. after a long hiatus, ive decided to write again.
but its not that I have something worth to write about.

2nd November is important. Y?
Its my last day of pupillage. Yeay.

But. I still have things to do. Put my papers in order.

BTW.
Im still trying to unlock certain things.
Trying to look for that missing puzzle(s).
Fitting it into a bigger picture. And learning new things.
Being a better person is in the list.

Its a process. A longgg process.
Hiccups here and there.
But I can assure, nothing can beat the feeling of satisfaction after all the efforts. 

Hence, attempts after attempts are inevitable.


**extra note : You are what you are.

Effort

Effort/s.

Is that too much to ask?
But then again, ure still in your comfort zone.
Mind you, maybe im not going to be there anymore.

Note to self: Dont put too much expectation in something because u'll never know that it might hit you back. hard.

tipu

"Chambering students will always get away with things. You guys can even get away with murder, yada yada yada"


I BEG TO DIFFER.