Read Between The Lines

weight issues

2012-01-22T09:44:00.001+08:00

Everyone, okay not everyone, but lots of people have been highlighting me about my weight. If its about me losing more weight i dont think it would be a problem, but this is gaining more of it.

The thing is, its not something that i can control, as BS as it sounds, its true. I can no longer control the cravings i have, the food im eating. I used to be good at it. but i dont know.

People just dont understand. and a friend of mine called me a makcik just because i gained a few kgs and was wearing t-shirt and at that point in time was walking too, like a makcik - at least thats what he said.

And, I am now trying to avoid at all cost bumping or hanging out with him because I dont want any form of toxicity (is there such word?) in my life. I can be really affected about people commenting on my weight. Yeah, so what if i gained a few kgs. Can always lose it back but if i dont so leave it be. Its my fat u ***k face, didnt ask you to go comment on it. But hey its a free world aint it, people can always say what they want to say.

Please, what have u achieved so far? EXACTLY.

Point made, hey ho, lets go.

again

2012-01-16T17:48:00.000+08:00

okay, i think i want to start and write again. i think. not that i'm a consistent blogger previously, but its worth a try.

...

see. i dont even know what to write. currently, as of now, im hating my job. i dont know why. but maybe i just dont feel remunerated or valued. thats normal, aint it?

oh and my e-day is coming up!

25.02.2012

:) can't wait.

I love you

2011-08-19T10:34:00.000+08:00

Adlan Hadi,

from the bottom of my heart I love you.

;)

Memor-ies

2011-02-01T09:28:00.000+08:00

I havent posted anything in a while.

But i found out something. few weeks back.

I want to try and make efforts, but i dont know how to. Bcoz i know you could be the one for me. Or maybe i think you could be the one for me.

How I wish things were easier back then. and i dont have that much pride in me.

I shouldve let my guard down few years back.

oh well. somehow, things happend for a reason. right thing will fall in its place, one day.

an attempt

2010-10-31T00:08:00.001+08:00

i tried changing my blog layout but instead i lost my header pic in the process.

oh well. whatever.

anyways. after a long hiatus, ive decided to write again.
but its not that I have something worth to write about.

2nd November is important. Y?
Its my last day of pupillage. Yeay.

But. I still have things to do. Put my papers in order.

BTW.
Im still trying to unlock certain things.
Trying to look for that missing puzzle(s).
Fitting it into a bigger picture. And learning new things.
Being a better person is in the list.

Its a process. A longgg process.
Hiccups here and there.
But I can assure, nothing can beat the feeling of satisfaction after all the efforts.

Hence, attempts after attempts are inevitable.

**extra note : You are what you are.

Effort

2010-07-15T23:34:00.001+08:00

Effort/s.

Is that too much to ask?
But then again, ure still in your comfort zone.
Mind you, maybe im not going to be there anymore.

Note to self: Dont put too much expectation in something because u'll never know that it might hit you back. hard.

tipu

2010-06-28T23:19:00.000+08:00

"Chambering students will always get away with things. You guys can even get away with murder, yada yada yada"

I BEG TO DIFFER.

5th Month

2010-06-06T00:23:00.001+08:00

I am proud to say that on the 2nd of June 2010,
we have entered our 5th month of chambering!

Well done.
Crap.
i stil got 5 more months to go.
Cheers!

The truth

2010-05-16T19:14:00.000+08:00

The truth is...

I dont know what the truth is.

From the heart.

2010-04-24T12:32:00.000+08:00

there will be a time when you will realize that you cant satisfy everybody,
and it works both ways.

But sometimes you thought that maybe you could be the exception
or you thought that what you are or what you portray yourself as, is enough.
But its not.
Nothing is ever enough. and nothing is ever good enough.
But that's life. Its human nature. Its norm.

And there are certain things that i've realized.
Pointing finger is never the answer.

Maybe a change of weather is good.
The best so far i guess.

Its not that I did'nt try.
but maybe trying is overrated.
its alright, this is the time when you know that you have to let certain things go.
Slowly. Pieces by pieces.

Im not gonna say its easy
Its not. Its going to take time.
But its better than what I was feeling before.

To a new beginning, and hopefully, a better one.

work*

2010-04-12T13:25:00.000+08:00

Im clueless.
I dont know what i want.
I dont know where my interest lies.
I just dont know.

Certainty.

2010-04-10T23:51:00.000+08:00

im not perfect.
and im not asking for perfection.

but i just need to be certain.
Thats it. Certainty.

Space

2010-04-04T18:58:00.001+08:00

when you thought all you need was space...
Clearly I need something more than that.

I need to dissappear.

Nasty- nastier- nastieeesssssnesttttt??

2010-03-19T14:03:00.003+08:00

I got this from Miss Mariette. Its in one of her many forwarded emails.

One of the worst things about life is not how nasty the nasty people are.You know that already. It is how nasty the nice people can be.
– Anthony Dymoke Powel

very true indeed.

Someday

2010-03-08T22:27:00.007+08:00

You can go
You can start all over again
You can try to find a way to make another day go by
You can hide
Hold all your feelings inside
You can try to carry on when all you want to do is cry

Cause maybe someday
We'll figure all this out
We'll put an end to all our doubt
Try to find a way to just feel better now and
Maybe someday we'll live our lives out loud
We'll be better off somehow
Someday

Cause sometimes we don't really notice
Just how good it can get
So maybe we should start all over
Start all over again

*cheers*

Attention!

2010-03-05T10:54:00.000+08:00

Dear Nik, Steven and Mark,

Stop vandalising my blog by writing comments using the partner's name.
I know its you guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Kind Regards,
Taiti Champion. *hahahaha*

read between the lines

2010-02-23T20:12:00.000+08:00

first hand info.
second hand info.
third hand info and so on and so forth.

pernah main game bisik-bisik tak?
best because its funny.
but in reality its not.

Hmm. one thing that I should ponder on.
if i have time la kot.
but i dont.

I miss.

2010-02-16T09:38:00.002+08:00

deep inside

2010-02-09T19:23:00.000+08:00

i choose not to speak.
so i write.

but i dont have anything to write about.
i have no feelings.emotions.expressions or whatsoever.
im exhausted.

How can I explain it to you when the things that I was trying to convey is so direct?
being lost is not direct either.

its not hard. easy actually.
and now im sinking.
deep into the sea.

Run away

2010-02-07T16:15:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I wonder,
what have I been learning in school?
4 years of law school goes down the drain.
well, not literally but you know what I mean.
I seriously, seriously cant find the answer and Im clueless.

An opinion is not an opinion when theres nothing to write about.
Can I just give a blank piece of paper and say "you are entitled to any opinion that will serve your circumstances and needs".
Coz thats the beauty of a blank paper. U dont need any authorities.
U just do anything that u wish to do.

Unfortunately, life is not that easy.

pieces by pieces

2010-02-01T22:44:00.002+08:00

i guess, when the time is right,
you have to learn how to let go.

and in my case, its got nothing to do with love,
its just learning how to let certain things go.
even if it hurts.
pieces by pieces.

so. let go.
slowly.

Entah lah

2010-01-20T18:19:00.000+08:00

i cant read u sometimes,
and i dont know how to.

susah. sangat susah.

Do you remember?

2010-01-14T16:52:00.000+08:00

Im not asking you to make me your number 1.
But, I want you to notice me.
Notice my existence.

Im neither here nor there.
But, Im everywhere.

So tell me, is that too much to ask?

Facebook's Stats

2010-01-10T01:29:00.004+08:00

we all have facebook account right?

i mean alllllll of us. even orang yang dah tua pun main facebook skarang.

weird.

but. theres this one status from a friend of mine that goes :

If you like me, please let me know, because you never know I might like you too!

seriously. it caught my attention.

because somehow, its the truth.

you never know until you try.

but the thing is, what if ure afraid of taking chances?

what if that person doesnt like you back?

taking risks and chances are not my thing when it comes to love.

rejection is pain.

i'd rather wait than having to take chances.

i know its boring and safe. but i still dont have the guts. not just yet.

or maybe the right one (the one) hasnt come along. Maybe, im not ready to take chances.

So. Lets wait and see for the right one. i think i'll fight for you. maybe, just maybe.

so people. what say you?

Busy

2010-01-07T01:55:00.000+08:00

Why am I still wide awake eventho its already 150 am?
Why??!
Because. I. Am. Currently. Doing Work.
It was a last minute thing and a last minute notice.
So yeah. I think I should resume back to my work.
It needs my attention.

Oh. Darn.
Working life sucks.
I mis school!

Monday : 4th January 2010

2010-01-03T03:20:00.001+08:00

Monday, 4th of January 2010.

New chapter begins.
A start to something new.
But a day that i will dread because it means that freedom is going to be freedoom!

oh well.
doesnt matter.
I just have to see how things go...
Hopefully, I wont screw things up.

and now i have to force myself to sleep.
coz i slept at 630pm and woke up at 2am.
its 320am. n yes. i cant have my sleep cycle ruined.
not when i have to start working on Monday.

So, people.
Wish me luck. oh. and the very best of luck.
I need it. :)

Lost and Found

2010-01-01T12:34:00.000+08:00

one thing i forgot to mention in my previous entry.

2009: the year that i lost a dear friend but gained many.

i dont know whether its a good thing or not,
but i'm sure things happened/happens for a reason.

:)

oh. and to all; HAPPY NEW YEAR!

I hope and really hope that 2010 will be different in many ways.

P/S: Seriously girl, you need a mirror. Yes, its your blog, but i seriously think u need a mirror. and a big one.

2009

2009-12-31T12:54:00.000+08:00

2009.

hmmm. in less than 24 hours itll be 2010.
but to tell you the truth, ive never cared that much about new year anyways. or the celebration.
i just think its the same every year. and the difference between 2009 and 2010 is just the numbers.

but one thing i have to admit.
ive gained a lot in 2009.
and im sure 2010 has a lot to offer in terms of responsibilities, obligations and all that.

New Year Resolutions???!
haha. never had one.
even if i did, i dont think im going to fulfill it.
Im lazy.

So. Like any other year, i dont think il be needing resolutions.
Lets just go with the flow yah.

Oh and even if i need one, i wont call it resolutions, id call it something else ;D

Pick me. Choose me. Love me.

2009-12-29T01:28:00.003+08:00

But Derek, I love you, in a really, really big pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window, unfortunate way that makes me hate you, love you. So pick me, choose me, love me.

*Meredith Grey- Greys Anatomy Season 2

Philip Island

2009-12-25T18:35:00.005+08:00

The view is beautiful! Breathtaking to be precise.

oh and this is me. with the beautiful view of course. :)

new hobby.

2009-12-22T21:03:00.005+08:00

"So. What do you enjoy doing during your free time?"

This is a very common question.
When you want to start a conversation, when u ran out of things to talk about, or during interviews even.

But WHY????!

Do we have to tell another person about our hobby/ies??

and now i have to tell people, i enjoy stalking people. You know, just for the fun of it. Its like an observation of human characters.

Seriously???

yeah seriously.

*and the conversation will go like this:

me:hey my name is Sharifah. and my hobby is stalking people.
stranger: Oh. I didnt ask you your hobby.
me: well, in case u askd later, i thot itd be better to skip a few questions and just go straight to the real deal. and now u know that im weird u can skip the whole part.

** this entry is not about hobby/ies at all. Its actually about - how to avoid conversations with strangers.

oh god. This entry is so boring. sorry.
seriously, this post shud be about- how to waste time by reading a lame entry.

but i guess its too late huh?

Leaving on a jetplane~

2009-12-21T16:49:00.004+08:00

Im happy that my flight to Malaysia will be leaving in a few hours.
Spending time in Melbourne for a few weeks was awesome. And i loved Adelaide too.
But... that means, 4th of January will be nearer. and nearer.

and soon, i will have to drag myself to work (pupillage) and get to be a 'kuli' with an LLB!
ho yeah!

im so excited! *NOT*

So mari rakan-rakan, kita jadi kuli selama 9 bulan! Mari! :D

*Ecstatic*

P.S: muka ku rentung di baham matahari. Muka berbelang belang. DARNNNNNNITTTTTTTTTT.

Just Plain... Stupid

2009-12-20T08:26:00.003+08:00

* This is my point of view. And dont you go get affected by it, coz at the end of the day, my point of view does'nt really matter, aite?

Ohkay, ohkay. I havent heard from any of you just yet. But I heard things... from people. or a person. and maybe, just maybe, I shouldnt have judged or make assumptions or even worse, jump into conclusions.,

but i'm not stupid. When I heard about it, I did some research. here and there. and read something about it. and made a few assumptions. (i know, i know, assumptions are bad but I have good intuition. Always have, and in this situation, making assumptions are okay)

What you did, was unacceptable. Give thousands of excuses and reasons, your actions cant be remedied. The damage is done. But im not going to stop being friends with you just because of what you did.

But I wont be able to look at you as the same person before. You are to me, a friend and just an ordinary friend. Im not saying this just because of certain person/persons was affected by your actions.

But I was indirectly affected by it. Few weeks back. But I didnt want to say anything about it coz I thot it was just a phase. But clearly, it wasnt just a phase. Its a freaking disease. So go. Go and do whatever you want or do whatever you think is right for you, if it means sacrificing your own friendship.

Because to me, friends stay forever. and maybe that certain someone that is soooo important to you right now is just a phase. or maybe not. I might be wrong. But theres also a 50% chance that I might not.

oh and remember. This is just my point of view and it doesnt really matter. If you think this post is about you, then hell yes it is!

hmmm

2009-12-16T19:49:00.001+08:00

I MISS YOU!

darn it.

Dandenong Market

2009-12-09T10:43:00.008+08:00

Yesterday's weather was freaking cold. The weathers been crazy lately...
I was practically freezing. *summer la sangat kan*

But then again, its me. I'm not the type of person who enjoys the cold weather pretty much,,
oh well, who does kan?

Copy Cat

2009-12-07T20:35:00.005+08:00

The place where i took the pictures is called Docklands. Its near harbour Town and just 3 minutes walking distance. I love this place! Y? Because Harbour Town is a shopping mall and by just a 3 minute walk you can do your sightseeing and enjoy the lovely view of the city.

Nice place. oh its supposed to be summer. but its not really summer.

Lovely weather. Sunny with a cool breeze. :)

melbourne

2009-12-06T05:53:00.006+08:00

i arrived in Melbourne on Thursday at approximately 0030 (melbourne local time),
and today is Sunday. *0830 melbourne local time*

Its not hot in here, but its quite cold. I didnt expect it to be cold since its summer and the weathers supposed to be hot and everything.
But then again, im not complaining, except when the night comes. (for the obvious reasons)

And what have i been up to?
This is the funniest part. I havent done any sightseeing. But just went straight to malls. after malls.

I guess i will reserve the sightseeing later. (when my parents are here or maybe during the weekdays)
And i dont have anything else to say. or type.
till then.

I want to know what LOVE is

2009-11-30T10:39:00.009+08:00

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
I wanna feel what love is
I know you can show me

Thank You, You.

2009-11-29T14:45:00.005+08:00

I want to say thank you. to you.
for understanding and for being patient with me.
i know there are times that u couldve lose ur patience with me. (vice versa)
But u didnt.

and thank you for the years of friendship.
I appreciate the priceless moments.
The memories are strong, it wont fade even if i force it to fade.
oh and you stil have a super duper gigantic space reservd for you in my brain.
Up to 10 gigs perhaps. haha.
Tapi itu subjected to how ure gonna treat me. =p

Last but not least, Thank You for staying and holding on when u couldve just let things go...

Schools Cool

2009-11-26T11:43:00.002+08:00

Its only the first week of the hols. And I miss law school already!

The atmosphere, the hype and my friends. Crap crap crap!
I hate changes.

Random

2009-11-21T19:44:00.002+08:00

Im not in the mood to blog sebenarnya. But then, since i need someone to talk to, i guess writing is the best option.

Law Graduation Dinner was awesome except the fact that i didnt get to spend more time with certain friend (s). *tak dapat spend time langsung sebenarnya*

Its a dissapointment and ... Wanted to cry but somethings holding me back. My pride i guess.

The Truth

2009-11-08T11:14:00.004+08:00

Lets start by saying that youre you and im me.
But the difference did not set us apart nor did it drew a line between us.
The difference made our bonds grew stronger.

But, that was then and this is now.
The difference that put us together is driving us apart.
Those four walls we built together are tumbling down.
You enjoy things that I dont.

A green apple to you back then was a green apple to me.
I accepted any differences.
But a green apple to you now, is a blue apple to me.
Illogical but it makes perfect sense.

say hi to November

2009-11-07T16:44:00.002+08:00

November. Its November already??!

And things will soon come to an end.
And I dont know whether Im gonna look forward to new beginnings...

Im scared. and clueless.
New people. New environment.
Will we still keep in touch?
Are we going to be the same?
Are you going to remember me?
Will I still know your name?

I hope.
This is not going to be the end.
I need time. Still.

When time is not at your side…

2009-10-30T17:07:00.002+08:00

Sometimes you wish that time could go faster than its usual speed. But sometimes you just want to buy time and enjoy your life slowly by the minute. At this moment, I am counting the days when my last paper on the 18th November will be over. The four years of law school taught me a lot. These past years have been the best time of my life and I can never compensate it with anything else. Those times are priceless.

I remember the first time I lay my feet on the IIU’s green holy ground. I still can recall moments of taaruf week perfectly as if it was just yesterday…

There were times that I just feel like working and not studying. Things like ‘I want to spend my own money. I want more freedom. I don’t want to do any more assignments. I don’t think I can memorize this crap any longer’ made me think twice about school.

But then, those are the things that kept me going and those are the things that I will miss the most.

I will miss waking up in the morning to go to classes, meeting up with the deadlines, have lunches with friends, skipping classes and… (the list goes on).

What I want to say is, what kept me going and will keep me going is my FRIENDS. The 'list' wouldnt be complete without my friends . Each and every one of you will always have a place in my heart. You helped me when I was at my lowest low and laughed with me when I was at my highest high. You are my everything and I thank you.

and hopefully I will always have a place in your heart too… From the bottom of my heart, I love you to bits.

I wish you all the best and good luck*

If only time is at our side and if only I could buy more time. If only.

...

2009-10-25T00:26:00.004+08:00

I thought things would be different if I texted certain words to you.
But its not making things right.

I know I dissapoint you, but the thing is, U dissapoint me too.
And if only people could be more forgiving rather than to be judgmental most of the time...

But its okay, maybe I should take this as a sign or a 'hikmah' from Him.
There are always reasons for everything.
And He knows it all.

But, I want to say this:

I'm sorry if I ever hurt you in any way. It wasnt intentional. What I did was wrong. And this is an unconditional apology. But I have my pride. When I apologized to you the other day, I meant it from the bottom of my heart. But Im not the type of person who waits. I dont. And if you cant accept my apology, then I'll go knowing that I did my part. And I dont know whether I should do more because, I dont know whether more would suffice in this situation. So. Its your call. And as always, I love u. n i miss u too.

Paparazzi!

2009-10-23T21:28:00.000+08:00

I'm your biggest fan

I'll follow you until you love me

Papa-Paparazzi

Baby there's no other superstar

You know that I'll be your-

Papa-Paparazzi

Eternal Flame

2009-10-17T21:34:00.002+08:00

I wish for eternity. But eternity seems to be impossible right now,

and i can no longer hold this feeling.,
and as much as i dont want it to fade,
sooner or later, this feeling will come to an end.

Not entirely, but slowly.
Perhaps if you could just give me a sign or a hint,
then maybe, just maybe,
I could stay. and keep on trying.

If

2009-10-16T18:58:00.002+08:00

when things dont go according to plan,

you do things spontaneously...

Coincidence?

2009-10-11T11:29:00.005+08:00

500 days of summer memang terbaik!
its not just an ordinary romantic comedy film.
Its something more. Borgy n I went to pyramid to get the tix and we both know that Ajins gonna watch it too with his cousin.

We later meet up and found out that by coincidence we get to sit at the same row next to each other. haha. Funny kan?

But whatever it is, thumbs up to 500 days of summer. Seriously. U guys should go n watch it.
The ending is not a fairy tale, but its real. ;D

and I learnd that eventhough i do want a guy with money, decent looking bloke with a career from a good family, it all boils down to whether he is real or not?? And yes I want a real man. Not just some guy you see on the street with a nice car or a nice suit. I need someone REAL.

Find me one, please??

dearest

2009-10-04T17:11:00.002+08:00

Dearest You,

I am still waiting for you.
I'm not tired, but i'm just exhausted.

Wherever you are,
I'm here and will always be.

Patience is all I need.
and Love does not come easy...

Losing weight. NOT!

2009-09-28T01:36:00.002+08:00

Puasa: Lost few pounds.

First day of Raya: Gained back what ive lost during fasting month. Mayb i gained more.

DARNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN ITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!

i hate my fatself. benci.

k goodnight.

si konon kurus,
*sheyf-ah

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

2009-09-18T14:29:00.007+08:00

Dearest family and friends,
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri
Maaf Zahir & Batin

20 jari ku susun memohon ampun dan maaf *
(dan juga dari hujung rambut sampai hujung kaki)

jika ada terkasar bahasa dan tersalah laku, mintak maaf ye,,

** oh oh and selamat makan juga, drive safe and be good ;D

Marital Status: SINGLE

2009-09-15T22:01:00.002+08:00

haih. its not just marital status yang single. DAH MEMANG SINGLE pun.
ok okay. ada kawan saya yang memberi explanation logic kenapa org single stil single k,

i said to her, lelaki idaman belum muncul dalam hidup kerana dia masih sesat tak dapat jumpa girls like us (take note: single girls),

oh and she said, and i quote : mebi lelaki idaman kite tuh tgh tunggang kuda, lawan2 byk kingdom sblm dtg jumpa kita,,

oh seriously? i hope so.
our theories make sense kan???! kan?!!,
if it doesnt make sense to you, it does to someone else. (yang stil indenial, mungkin)
hahhaha.
yer yer, saya dan rakan saya stil indenial.
Biarlah! :p

Go fly your own kite,

2009-09-14T01:32:00.002+08:00

I keep on saying that I dont want to care about you anymore, and yet, I still feel mad and emotional when your name is brought up in any conversation.

Coz the truth is, i mis you. n i feel betrayed by you.
Cant you just be the same and ditch your lame significant other????????!
because, i know, that youre not you when youre with him.
But who am I to give my piece of mind when what I know about you is getting lesser each day.
I cant compete with him and i cant compete with others.
Im me.
I wish that things are stil the same like it used to, 4 years back.

The only thing i can say is: "Go fly your own kite, coz i might be busy with mine"

raya 09

2009-09-13T14:52:00.003+08:00

Last night's family gathering was awesome. as usual.
My uncle brought bunga api n i fired a 'few' of that bunga api and go round and round chasing my little cousins to scare them off.
and when all the firecrackers are banned and u cant get any of it somewhere else, the only thing that u can play with is bunga api and those pop things. (the small white round thing where u hav to throw it on the floor to get that POP effect)
We had poppp war last night and the truth is, im afraid of those pop things. My pregnant cousin threw it at me n i ran away. I wanted so bad to throw it back at her but considering that shes pregnant, im just afraid that the baby might come out at that spur moment.
But that didnt stop me anyways. I threw considerably large amount of Popppers to my sisters and cousins. haha.

Just because I like to see the expression on their faces.

Oh well. I just love family gathering. Dont you?

Family Gath

2009-09-12T11:20:00.001+08:00

Mari berbuka puasa bersama family tercinta.

:D

McD

2009-09-10T13:57:00.002+08:00

Drive thru McD:

'saya nak McSahur satu bang'

laaaa. tak tau pun McSahur takde. loser betul McD ni.
*sigh*

A key to happiness

2009-09-06T22:09:00.003+08:00

There are a few things that can make me happy:

1. an unexpected text from someone (hihi)
2. familia
3. caramel frappucino
4. cupcakes
5. friends and gossips
6. you.
7. and you.
8. good songs.
9. movies
10. and ...???

Mari merompak di carrefour,

2009-09-05T20:25:00.002+08:00

Have u ever heard of a story where a trolley full of groceries vanished in a matter of seconds? Sounds unbelievable but that’s what happened in Carrefour a few hours ago. The funny thing about this is that, of all the things that a person could steal, it had to be groceries. I mean come on, of all the things??! I know groceries are valuable and one trolley can sum up to at least RM250 worth of necessities.

But, but, but… have some mercy to the people who had to go round and round the store and search for their specific needs. Kesian kan?
I guess when one is desperate; there are no limits whatsoever imposed on them. Desperate times, call for desperate measures.

The world is not a safe place, not anymore.
Not just because of the groceries that got stolen, but the fact that the least of things that you could think of got stolen, what about the things that are so apparent to the eyes of human?

Now now, no worries. Spiderman is here. NOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!

Frustrations

2009-09-04T23:11:00.004+08:00

One of the major good things on writing an entry is; the sky is ur limit.
So, today, I am going to voice out my frustrations.
I know sometimes I wrote things that are too vague and nobody can actually decipher the message that im sending. But the truth is, I dont know how to express my anger or frustrations in a clear manner.

I tend to hold my feelings back and not to opt for my freedom of expression. Thus, to be safe, I conceal things and try to say few details as possible. Eventho we all know its defeating the purpose of a blog, but what am i to do?

And frustrations.
If only things went a little bit smoother and if only I could reach the stars before the night ends...

If only.

A goodbye note

2009-09-02T13:35:00.004+08:00

Attempts by attempts.
All seems to be a failure.
U're pushing me away.
U were'nt there. and u are not even here right now.

Dont say something like 'im in the middle of a crisis right now', coz ure making it worst.
and just dont find me when problems decide to visit.

I tried.
This is a note telling you that I no longer want to be there for you.
And i dont need you to be there for me too.
and that, this is me giving up.

Goodbye.

Prince Charming or A Knight in Shining Armour?

2009-08-30T17:57:00.003+08:00

Between these two, which one's your pick?

Prince Charming : A handsome young lad with charm (of course) and has a way with words. He's a gentleman and girls will likely to fall head over heels just because of his looks and smile.

or

A Knight in Shining Armour : He's neither handsome nor ugly but he is a man with muscles. He is the person who would fight for you and he has a way with style. There's just something about him that makes you drool but you can't figure out why.

I know. Is it too vague? Can you tell the difference?
I know i can.
I want both!
But of course, in this world u cant have everything.
Whats the point of me writing this?

Just to tell u that guys or men come in many forms (shapes and sizes too! :P) and it doesnt matter if he is a prince charming or a knight, as long as he makes ur world upside down, uve found urself someone to hold on to.
And that i tell you, is a good deal.

Happy Browsing through! ;D

2009-08-30T01:04:00.001+08:00

Which Grey's Anatomy Character Are You?
	You are Meredith. You are slightly neurotic and a little impulsive. You think with your heart first and by the time your brain catches up, you're already in trouble. Sometimes you find it way too difficult to make decisions, and you spend a lot of your time wondering if you've made the right choices. You wonder "what if" or "should I" and it kind of makes the people around you go a little crazy...seriously! But being so emotional does have a good side- you can feel true empathy for others and people like to open up to you.
Find Your Character @ BrainFall.com

happy

2009-08-29T11:59:00.002+08:00

isnt it weird that a text message from someone has the ability to make u happy?
Just one text. Or smssss.
So, dont underestimate the power to sms or to text,
coz u never know it might have certain effects on that special someone.

;D

So, what are u waiting for?!
Go text someone. anyone.
PftttT! ;P

Crystal Clear

2009-08-28T18:09:00.003+08:00

high school.
Y do i feel like im back in high school?
*sigh*

some things never change.

PMS

2009-08-27T20:39:00.001+08:00

when PMS hits,
nothings normal.

Life

2009-08-22T17:09:00.002+08:00

In life, people will never fail to dissapoint u.
but i guess that is the circle of life, coz u dissapoint them too.

but doesnt matter. Life is all about living it large.

Oh. N today is the first day of Ramadhan. Happpy Fasting people.
Im gonna hit the bazaar real soon,.
Laparrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

Sugar high

2009-08-22T01:02:00.003+08:00

i dont know what to do,

i think im fallin for you...

deleted scenes

2009-08-16T17:16:00.003+08:00

you said you wanted to call but you didnt.
but i couldnt care less.
y? just because ur presence is becoming less important in my life. day by day.

Dont think i didnt try. I cried trying. Im exhausted.
Y should i be the one who always gives in?
For once in my life im not going to feel guilty that i acted selfishly.
I stil love u and stil care for u.
But like i said, ur presence does not affect that much in my life as it did before.

N honey, patching things up workd miraculously years back. I dont think it will do the same miraculous wonders for us now.
But u can always prove me wrong.
or mayb its me. Mayb im the one at fault.
Oh well. Who knows?

Love,
*the one who has always been the same. and stil the same* (i hope)

I have feelings too.

2009-08-08T15:17:00.002+08:00

I may act as if i dont care,
but deep inside i do.

I may act as if im happy,
but deep inside, im crying pretty badly.

Im just good at ignoring things and
act as if everythings fine.
When its not.

But doesnt matter.
Coz im ok.

070809

2009-08-07T21:42:00.001+08:00

:D

Terima Kasih semua.

A quest for Love.

2009-08-02T21:53:00.007+08:00

"You may think that you can find love, but the truth is, love finds you"

No regrets

2009-07-31T23:42:00.007+08:00

Futsal tournament went OK.
But it was not ok for me la kan.
Mengapa???!

Oh kerana saya di sepak di kaki. dan sangat sakit.
I cried like mad. *kalah orang nak beranak*
It was so freaking painful and im not kidding u.
*thanks kak solehan sebab letak ice dekat kaki. :))

Anyways, terima kasih juga kepada faisya.kamal.bonyo.aifa.ajin n shaf kerana teman pergi clinic dan melayan kerenah gila saya.
Especially to Faisya la kan. :P hahhaa.

And to Chillaweyhs: Thanx yah kerana berfutsal dan tergelak-gelak walaupun dapat 3rd place je out of ....???? hahhahaha. But it was fun kan??? kan? ;D

P/S: oh n thanx to Nuur kerana supply bandage and balutkan kaki saya sebelum ke class. :D

Nervousa

2009-07-26T01:44:00.002+08:00

I feel... nervous!
and its nearly 2am. i shud be in bed by now.
But i dont feel like it.

Wish me luck.
Im gonna crush em tomorrow.

Chillaweyhs, we can soooooo do this thing. hahahhaha.
well, hopefully.

*cheers!

A special message*

2009-07-25T08:39:00.003+08:00

To my dearest sister,

The general rule is: Guys are jerks.
The exception to the rule is that; Unfortunately, theres no exception to the above rule.

But of course, along the way, in Adelaide perhaps, if u bumped into a decent guy, and he is not a JERK, then stay with him.
Roads are not often straight. Its bumpy and curvy. But wheres the fun in life if the road is always straight right?
I guess, what i'm trying to say here is that, getting into relationships are always easy and fun. But getting out of it is tough. And tough is just another word.
You will survive. and things will get easy in a few months or so,
but heck, mayb itll turn out alright in just another few weeks.

P/S: everything happens for a reason. God always knows whats best for us.

*take care. and i heart u.

part of your world

2009-07-19T18:11:00.002+08:00

i want to be part of your world,

how i wish u can see through me
and i dont have to say it. out loud.

I have a heart and
i want you to take it.

Coz at the end of the day,
I really think that u are the missing piece that fits my puzzle. Perfectly.

Colours of tomorrow. or today. or whatever.

2009-06-27T04:00:00.005+08:00

Red is anger

1. Are you currently mad at someone?
emm. nope. dont think so.

2. Which of your family members has the worst anger management?
certainly not me

3.Have you ever thrown something at anyone?
yes!! does throwing a ball during a netball match counts? ohhkay. thats lame. haha.

4.Is anyone mad at you?
i have no idea. i hope theres none. :D

5. Are you usually mad?
hmm. hmm. depends. but when i have my PMS, anger management does not exist in my world.

6.When you are mad do you prefer to stare angrily or yell?
haha. both. yell and then stare. but if im in a good mood, then i would just stare. haahha.

Orange is Excitement.

1. Has anyone ever thrown a surprise party for you?
:))) Yeap.

2. What event is coming up that you're most excited about?
any event excites me. So, im easily excited. Hence... whatever. u know what i mean.

3. If you won a million dollars, what would be your first thought?
A GOOD INVESTMENT PLAN. like, Duh!

4. If you could have anything right now what would it be?
super power. I want to be a jumper. Like the guy in that jumper movie. I want to jump, jump and jump!!!!

Yellow is Self-discovery.

1. Name:
Sharifah Nur Izzati Syed Mohd Hamdan

2. Birthday:
7th August 1986

3. Whats your main goal in life?
to be happy. whats the point of having everything if im not happy right? but its not wrong to have everything, as long as im happy then its fine.

4. Do you want to have children?
Yes. But im scared. hahah.

5. How do you want to die?
peacefully. and dalam keimanan n sempat mengucap.

Green is Opinions

1. Are you against gay marriage?
Yes. Period.

2. Lower the drinking age?
No way.

3. Capital Punishment?
this is a tough one. capital punishment is a must. But who are we to determine who has the right to live or not? But then again, i dont know. I guess its a yes.

4.Abortion?
Morally wrong. Not allowed in Islam. and its illegal.

Blue is Love.

1. Do you love someone?
Define someone. Does it include family and friends?

2. Do you believe in love at first sight?
Hmm. Love at first sight? Thats like a fairy tale. 'Like' at first sight, maybe. Love at first sight, its too good to be true. So i guess its a no.

3. Do you believe in love?
*sigh* Yes, i still believe in love.

Purple is Q&A.

Q: how many beds did you lie in today?
Only one.

Q: What color shirt are you wearing?
red. or pink. or reddish pink. i dont know. Im colour blind. . . . Kidding. Its definitely red. i think.

Q: Name one thing that you do everyday?
sleep and im good at it :D

Q: Whats the first thing you think of when you wake up everyday?
oh crap, whats the time?

Q: Have you ever stayed over at someones place before?
Duh.

Q: Look to your left. Whats there?
my mug

Q:Whats the last thing you borrowed from someone?
i cant remember. crap. maybe a book.

Q: What website(s) do you visit the most during the day?
facebook. youtube. wikipedia. google.

Q: Do you have plants in your room?
no i dont have plants in my room. have no intention of having plants in my room pun. wait are u talking about fake plants or the real ones? haha.

Q: Does anything hurt on your body right now?
yes. blame the hormones

Q: Do you own a camera phone?
yeap

Q:Recent time you were really upset?
few days back.

Pink is the Last:

3. Movie watched in cinema:
Transformers!

4. Song you listened to:
Knock u down - Keri Hilson, Kanye West and Neyo

5. Person you talked on the phone with:
My Along.

6. Did you notice that the question 2 was gone:
yeap. Its obvious.

Grey is Today

1. What are you doing right now?
u think? seriously, seriously, seriously?! Thats a big DUH.

2. What are you doing later?
sleep :D

3. What are you going to eat?
breakfast.

Brown is Tomorrow.

1. Tomorrow is:
Saturday. yeay~

2. Are you looking forward to it?
Em not really. haha.

3. Are you going to laugh?
what for? is this a joke? if its a joke, then ill laugh. but what the heck. HAHAHAHAH.

with me,

2009-06-04T13:11:00.002+08:00

Once, I loved a person who knew nothing of my existence.
I said 'oh baby, y cant u look my way?'
Im in front of u n all u see is blue...

deeper conversation

2009-06-02T23:40:00.006+08:00

I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation

I WANT TO LEARN YOU

I mis You. I do.

2009-05-29T19:44:00.006+08:00

Holidays. I love holidays. But the downside of it is that i dont get to meet my friends that often.

crack stupid jokes and laugh till ur jaw hurts or to lepak in the lab and play with those amazing chairs yang beroda itu. hahhaaha.
I miss my friends!

permanent

2009-05-27T12:06:00.001+08:00

the only thing that is permanent in this world is change. or changes.

The scariest thing about growing up is to allow changes into ur life. There are a lot of changes a person has to go through. Changes to your physique, personality and even changes in the surroundings.
But, what about your friends?
Do u have different sets of friends when u enter university and did u retain ur old friends from high school or primary school?
Sometimes a person u befriend with for so long can change in a matter of seconds.

The sad thing about this is that u have no right to say no to it.
Or to say stop. Why?
Because u have to look in the mirror.

Are u the same person that you are 10 years ago or 8 years ago?
or even 3 years back?

Maybe, maybe not.

insignificant.

2009-05-15T01:25:00.002+08:00

you are insignificant. *sigh*

Happy?

2009-05-10T19:27:00.002+08:00

When I was small, I wanted to become a scientist. I wanted to be able to contribute to the mankind or to be able to change the world. (I know its cliché. But come on. I was a kid!)

Maybe I was desperate to prove that I can do something. But knowing myself, of course la semua tu hangat-hangat tahi ayam sahaja. (ahaha.)

I suck at science anyways. Its not that I hate science, but I’m just stupid at it. Oh well what to do.
But my point is, when I was small, I look at things differently. On the surface to be precise.

Now that Im an adult. Oh wait, scratch that. Now that I’m a young adult, perception on things change. I learn new things. Pick up a trick or two.

But seriously, it doesn’t matter if you are able to propose any changes to the world anyways. What matters the most is what u have accomplished as a person. What you feel inside is much more important as opposed to what people see outside.

You can say that u’re satisfied to 1 million people, but at the end of the day, we all know that it comes down to your own feelings.

Ask yourself: “Am I happy?”

And if the answer is in the affirmative. Then ask yourself again : “y?”

Stop! or dont stop. Like i care,,,,

2009-05-06T11:03:00.002+08:00

i have to stop eating.
Seriously. My mom should stop buying nasi lemak for me every single morning.
I can choose not to eat. But darn it. I love food.

STOP EATING!!!!!
I hate my perut. hahaha.

Destiny

2009-04-29T20:16:00.002+08:00

Destiny.

how do u know, as in really know that the thing that u're doing or u are going to do, is written in your destiny?

How am I suppose to find out what's the right thing to do?
Or to know whether the decision is correct?

Can I just dance? Dance my way out and towards my own destiny.

But, sadly no. I cant just dance. That would be too easy.

And of course, in this world, nothing is easy.

So come on people. Maybe we should sing. Sing sing sing. (walaupun suara macam katak, tapi x mengapa.)

So Sing. Just because, everyone can sing.
Doesnt matter if it sounds like crap.
Come on. Just sing your heart out.

Boom Boom Pow!

2009-04-28T01:11:00.003+08:00

I didnt expect the trip to Kuantan was going to be awesome. I thot it was going to be good. But it was great.

I had a lot of fun.

I am stil smiling. :))

hahahaha. K sheyfah u shud stop.

Less is More?

2009-04-22T12:31:00.005+08:00

LESS IS MORE.

But what if, less is not more?
Less equals to nothing.

The person who came up with this should be smackd. HARD.
Yes, sometimes less is more.
But more is more. More is substantial. And when u get substantial or significant amount of something, you'l be happy. Or satisfied at least.

I dont think Less is More.
Less is Less. Literally.
N i hate less. Give me back my MORE. I want MORE!

P/S: if this doesnt make sense, then well. U shud stick to less is more.

Birth-Day

2009-04-19T17:51:00.000+08:00

You Are a Mystic

You are an island. You don't need anyone else to make you happy.

And though you see yourself as a loner, people are drawn to you.

Deep and sensitive, you tend to impress others with your insights.

You also tend to be psychic - so listen to that inner voice!

Your strength: Your self sufficiency

Your weakness: You despise authority

Your power color: Maroon

Your power symbol: Hammer

Your power month: July

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

If this is a game...

2009-04-18T20:00:00.002+08:00

If this is a game...
I dont think i can go further.

If this is a game...
Y do i feel so exhausted?

If this is a game...
I dont know if i can reach the end.

If this is a game...
Then I'm glad that its just a play.

If this is a game...
Then its just a game.
So be it.

of all the things i could say or do...

2009-04-17T18:52:00.003+08:00

I got home at 3 something.
Went straight to my room and watched Kate & Leopold.
It was HEAVEN. Just because Hugh Jackman is hot.

I was smiling ear to ear and was busying daydreaming, when I found my old book.
Some of my past is still written there... Looking at me, waiting for me to recall those moments where we drew pictures together and wrote silly things about nothing.

I flipped those pages, and stopped.

At that spur moment, I found one old poem that I wrote a few years back.
6 years to be exact.
Read it. Re-read it. Again and again,
and laughed.

All i want to say is,
Im the type of person who love to stroll down the memory lane.
Those moments where you wish you could play back over and over again.

If i could push the replay button,
i would.

Giving Up

2009-04-14T15:11:00.002+08:00

When things dont go according to plan, what would u do??

Give up? Maybe. Thats the only perfect solution right now.
But i dont want to give up. Im a fighter.

But not anymore. Not when im exhausted.
So. This is me giving up.
This is me wanting so bad to surrender.

Sheyfah has raised the white flag.

Home.

2009-04-11T15:53:00.002+08:00

There's no such place like home.
Im glad that we're all done with JURIS.

I cant wait to finish this. All of these.
My back aches. (konon sbb banyak belajar)
ahaha.

And i am sleep deprived.
I want to take a nap but i cant.
Just because i am too exhausted to sleep.
And the fact that Baby Irfan is here!!!

He's gotten so big since the last time i saw him.
Which was 2 months ago.
Oh. hes so cute.

Like i said.
Theres no such place like home...

Its been crazy.

2009-04-10T04:40:00.002+08:00

Yes. Its the season when u wont get enough sleep,
When u have to rack ur brain in order to memorize every single bit of cases.
And when u have to be a little bit too stressd out for just about everything/anything.

But as for me. It is more than that.
It is about patience and perseverance. haha.
I hate it when it is the finals.
It sucks the fun out.

But yesterday was a different day.
Yeap.

Kacang buncis or kacang panjang??!
Waging war or not??!
Double chin or triple chin?? (ha-ha)
It doesnt matter really.
All i want to say is, when u are with the right company,
The world seems to go slow by the minute.
Everything seems to be in the right place.

So. To u my dearest friends.
You know who u are.

Cheers*
Sheyfah.

Different Perspective.

2009-03-11T17:27:00.002+08:00

I wish that i can be less judgmental.
But I'm human. And naturally humans tend to judge.

So. Can i see things from a different perspective?
Will people call me crazy? or stupid?

I am not a 150% sure as to what i'm gonna do next.
But someone told me just go with the flow.

So here I am.
I need to see. I need to follow my intuition.
Because, that's the only 'thing' i trust right now.

Please God, show me what i'm looking for.

Personality test

2009-03-09T00:12:00.002+08:00

1. Open this website : http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

2. Take the Personality Quiz

3. Copy Paste the result to Facebook

4. Tag your friends including me :)

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve

Random

2009-03-08T19:04:00.004+08:00

Reconciliation?

Letting go?

Living in the past?

I believe in second chances just because i believe in working things out.

But whatever. Doesnt matter really.

P.S: This is random. So random.

March.

2009-03-01T15:37:00.002+08:00

Dammit. It is only today that ive realized. Its MARCH.

oh crap. u know y? Because the Finals is near. and of course, saya belum insaf lagi dan notes belum di siap kan.

Yer, main-main lagi sharifah. Jangan tak main-main.

Anyways, tiba-tiba terfikir.

Whatever. I tend to think about things too much.
Cons? - jerawat naik.
Pros? - you tell me,.

and lets talk about right to life.
does it include : freedom to stare at people without having to do it with discreet?
ha-ha
y do i say so?
because, to live, i have to stare at people. especially the cute ones. but if i stare too long, then that certain person will freak out. (in other words: perasan)

tetapi saya memang suka tengok orang.
so, bagaimana nak solve this problem?

Just a white lie.

2009-02-27T23:43:00.000+08:00

lies. do we have to lie?
i dont know. but it seems to be a perfect solution to all things.
to avoid someone being hurt, i lied. i hate lying. especially to the person i care.
the guilt. having to think about it the whole day. and night.

so.
lying is not a solution. but i have to. out of necessity?
mayb.

now i know how it feels. dammit.

please dont blame me. i am not at fault.
and so i hope.

Read Between The Lines

weight issues

again

I love you

Memor-ies

an attempt

Effort

tipu

5th Month

The truth

From the heart.

work*

Certainty.

Space

Nasty- nastier- nastieeesssssnesttttt??

Someday

Attention!

read between the lines

I miss.

deep inside

Run away

pieces by pieces

Entah lah

Do you remember?

Facebook's Stats

If you like me, please let me know, because you never know I might like you too!

seriously. it caught my attention.

because somehow, its the truth.

you never know until you try.

but the thing is, what if ure afraid of taking chances?

what if that person doesnt like you back?

taking risks and chances are not my thing when it comes to love.

rejection is pain.

i'd rather wait than having to take chances.

i know its boring and safe. but i still dont have the guts. not just yet.

or maybe the right one (the one) hasnt come along. Maybe, im not ready to take chances.

So. Lets wait and see for the right one. i think i'll fight for you. maybe, just maybe.

so people. what say you?

Busy

Monday : 4th January 2010

Lost and Found

2009

Pick me. Choose me. Love me.

Philip Island

new hobby.

Leaving on a jetplane~

Just Plain... Stupid

hmmm

Dandenong Market

Copy Cat

melbourne

I want to know what LOVE is

Thank You, You.

Schools Cool

Random

The Truth

say hi to November

When time is not at your side…

...

Paparazzi!

Eternal Flame

If

Coincidence?

dearest

Losing weight. NOT!

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

Marital Status: SINGLE

Go fly your own kite,

raya 09

Family Gath

McD

A key to happiness

Mari merompak di carrefour,

Frustrations

A goodbye note

Prince Charming or A Knight in Shining Armour?

Which Grey's Anatomy Character Are You?

happy

Crystal Clear

PMS